I've been trying so hard to perfect my photography and there's still some parts I'm struggling to get juuuust right. I've been watching the CreativeLive series every Wed. and sometimes it seems I leave class more confused than enlightened! But I guess that's how it goes when you're diving in headfirst! Hopefully some time soon my brain will decide to catch up.
I've also been taking care of poor little E who has now been diagnosed with a "Immature tongue action" also known as persisting "tongue thrust reflex". In layman's terms this means she has not developed the tongue action we all use to eat; the tongue action that moves our food side to side so we can chew it. Instead she retains the newborn tongue thrust reflex which is to either suck food into the back of the throat (used in breastfeeding) which then makes her gag when she's trying to eat solids, or she just spits it straight out to avoid choking. This is extremely frustrating! At 10 mos old she's still almost entirely breastfed, which isn't yet dangerous considering babies can be breastfed exclusively for up to 18 months (sometimes longer) without it affecting their health. It's just a huge burden on mom considering I have been either pregnant or exclusively BFing for over 2 years now. Mama needs some time to re-grow these braincells. Stat!
Mah birfday is also quickly approaching. In 5 weeks I will be a quarter century old. It is my "golden birthday" as they say, since I will be 25 on the 25th. Nobody in my family cares, but then again I have yet to have an unforgettable birthday since I was 16. My 16th was meh, and my 10th was okay. Other than that they all epically SUCKED. So I'm not getting my hopes up, but unfortunately I'm not smart enough to stop hoping for something better. I've been trying hard to think of something I really want for my birthday. Something good. I know I want the 135mm lens, but I'm finding it hard to really get excited. I want to master Manual before I start a lens collection, otherwise it's just wasted money. Then I thought about my lightmeter. It would be really good to have, but in the end I want to be able to judge lighting on my own. So it would be tremendously helpful, but it would fall into the abyss of the camera bag eventually so I'm finding it hard to justify spending that much money on it. Then of course I want the whole studio/strobe set, but there's NO room in my itty bitty apartment for a set up like that, so *hmmph*. A few of my friends have been given down payments for houses in the past few months from their parents and grandparents, but I've already asked if I can join their family and they said no. :( I am now the only person I know that is not military and doesn't own a home. *emo sigh*
Welp, I'm off to cart my invalid husband into surgery. 6 days of my husband home with a bum knee. If my kids haven't depleted my brain of all sanity by now, these next few days are sure to finish the job. Blargh.
"I'm a mother with two small children, so I don't take as much crap as I used to."